Monthly Archives: September 2014

My diary

Posted on September 27, 2014 by thereisarainbow

i had a day stuck in bed yesterday and was all over the place and decided i wanted to reduce one of my medications because i want to find out if it’s that giving me such a foggy head or … Continue reading →

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Posted on September 26, 2014 by thereisarainbow

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the new 14 yr old

Posted on September 26, 2014 by thereisarainbow

Thanks to kat’s comment i suddenly had a flash of music helping so was researching music from 1982 when this song popped up and seems to be helping so far so i’m leaving it on here for us to come … Continue reading →

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My head is not a good place to be….My diary

Posted on September 26, 2014 by thereisarainbow

I am struggling so much to remain an adult at the moment, i managed to have two brief conversations with friends and it feels like it was a massive thing to do, i’m so grateful they are so patient with … Continue reading →

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Strength – My diary

Posted on September 25, 2014 by thereisarainbow

I sent t an email yesterday cancelling the appointment but he’s never actually accepted me leaving yet even though i’ve done it numberous times and he kept the appointment open for today and because of this ‘thing’ i have deep … Continue reading →

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My diary – going backwards

Posted on September 24, 2014 by thereisarainbow

Well today i quit therapy, not surprising seeing as i seem to be isolating myself from everyone at the moment!! This week i have tried so hard to better myself and all that’s happened is that we’ve gone spiralling backwards.  … Continue reading →

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The day after….my diary

Posted on September 21, 2014 by thereisarainbow

It might sound strange but i’ve tried really hard today to recall the memories that were brought up yesterday when i went jogging but i can’t access them…i don’t remember a single one!! In a way i don’t want to … Continue reading →

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Tried to be positive….

Posted on September 20, 2014 by thereisarainbow

When i woke up this morning i was determined that today was going to be ok and sure felt it until i went for a run.  I hadn’t been running long when the negative talk started internally. This always happens … Continue reading →

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19th September 2014

Posted on September 19, 2014 by thereisarainbow

T sent a lovely email last night, telling me that i’m not responsible for what happened..i so wish i could feel that in my heart but i don’t!! I feel it so strongly that i am responsible that i don’t … Continue reading →

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Hate myself……

Posted on September 18, 2014 by thereisarainbow

I got to talk to t for about the last 10 minutes of the session today, the rest was taken up by the others.  I tried to share a memory, i’ve already shared bits of it but i just didn’t … Continue reading →

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