I got to talk to t for about the last 10 minutes of the session today, the rest was taken up by the others. I tried to share a memory, i’ve already shared bits of it but i just didn’t have the words. T sat there, wiping my tears away, i didn’t have it in me to do it myself. The way t cares and sat their patiently with tissue drying my face because i couldn’t….i just dont get it, why would someone want to do that for me!! especially after revealing part of the memory, why is t even still talking to me!!
I hate myself….DO YOU HEAR THAT WORLD – I FUCKING HATE MYSELF, HATE – HATE – HATE
the pain in my body this morning where the others have hurt it was unbearable but yet in other ways comforting…comforting to know that they realise how much hate there is!!
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thereisarainbow 
i think we all have that exact feeling off and on, sometimes always on, and i too do, and i hope you and i can feel less hate for ourselves one day.
thank you so much for your support Kat….I so hope you can get passed those feelings about yourself soon because you don’t deserve to feel like that about yourself ♥
I’m so sorry for the pain you are in.
Thank you so much for your support Sam 🙂
Don’t give up! It will pass. You’re stronger than you think you are!
Thank you so much for your support stargazer 🙂 ♥
I love you lady!!!! Don’t you ever ever forget that! He wiped your tears away because he knows we are all not perfect and you are a beautiful amazing loving soul! Xoxoxoxo
earthly i love you so much ♥♥
Rainbow you are an amazing women and struggle with do much in your life .. Please remember that your illness does not define you, your courage defines you and as long as you keep fighting then you can get through this T is there to help and no matter what there is another T in your life that you can turn to anytime xxx
I know ♥♥ and you know i’m here for you anytime ♥♥