Paranoia is pretty extreme with me right now. Some things have happened lately and it’s kicked off a lot inside and i keep hearing those internal voices saying ‘people don’t like me’, ‘people hate me’ and i’m struggling to keep my head above water with this. My logical head is saying it’s not true but those voices playing those same messages over and over, are getting harder to ignore….
I’m spending my time with people constantly questioning myself – are they only talking to me because they feel they have too? are they only spending time with me because they feel obligated too?…
I’m questioning everything and whether people really can see the badness laying inside me. I’m having to push myself to talk to people, not because i don’t want to talk to them but because i’m wondering if i’m forcing myself on people who would really rather walk away and i shouldn’t be forcing anyone to have to have contact with me
thereisarainbow 
Just remember that most of us tend to be our own worst critics. Give yourself a bit of a break…and just keep shining that light! 🙂
I will try Stargazer…thank you 🙂
your post really hit home with me. i have been posting how i feel, so desperate, hopeless. but i never considered that that was some paranoia playing games with my real mind, with the real world.
so all those internal voices telling you how bad you are, that is paranoia, and needs to be kept ‘in check’ because it is not reality. i guess my perspective is wrong, is this paranoia. i guess i have to fight it, and struggle to see the real world perspective instead.
I am sorry you are struggling with this, and wish i could give you answers and help, but as you see, i am a step or two behind you! at least you know what you need to do, to try to keep yourself in reality. i will try this too. i hope we may be both successful in fighting our inner demons, voices that tear us apart each day.
We will both get through this Kat…don’t ask me how I know, i just do, that life will get better 🙂
I dont talk to you because i have to i talk to you because i want to. I want to know how your day as been and how you are feeling and what you are going through. And i want to share your pain and help you not because i feel i have to but because I WANT TOO xx i love you gorgeous please stay strong xc
I still find it hard to understand why you still want to know me but i thank myself every single day that you are in my life….thank you, love you xxx
Because you are an amazing person who as changed my life so much and you dont even realise it xx