This world scares me to the point that i find it hard to stay in it. It doesn’t make sense to me, i’m lost, in a void that i can’t get out of. I am tired of fighting for my life, of fighting to breathe, of having to constantly find the energy to keep going
I’m tired of being scared, of having to keep finding my way, of living a life full of paranoia, of fighting forces inside and outside of me. I feel so alone, so vulnerable and just so scared
thereisarainbow 
i have found myself in this same place, where there is only pain, for more years than i have not been in this place. i keep hoping, time after time, it will be the last….im sorry you’re feeling this way. there will sometime be a break, but for how long no one knows. maybe one day we all will find the lighter place.
I sure hope so Kat, especially for you 🙂
One of the lessons I’ve had difficulty learning is when to stop fighting something and just accept it for awhile. Sometimes when you STOP fighting it and give yourself a break, you suddenly discover a different way to see things that makes perfect sense.
Many times, I’ve found that the thing I’m fighting is just a catalyst. It’s there to teach me something. I’ve gotten much better at managing my occasional anger with things, for example. When I start to get really PISSED at something, I now try to set it aside for awhile. Usually when I come back to it, I’m in a much better frame of mind and discover the solution to the problem was right in front of me. I just couldn’t see it because of my single-minded focus at the time. In fact, I was just writing something about that a couple of days ago. I’ll have to finish the post up…maybe it will help with an idea or two.
Anyway, just remember, you’re NOT alone. We’re all right here with you. Although we may be on different paths, we’re all making our way through life one day at a time. And each day that passes, we become smarter and stronger than we were the day before—even though it may not always seem that way. We’re all much stronger than we think we are! Just know that.
🙂
Stargazer
Stargazer that is a really good point about setting something aside and then coming back to it. You have given me a lot to think about with your comment. Thank you so much 🙂
Sending loads of love and strength to you hun 💖
Thank you so much earthly ♥♥